The case of homeopath Elena Javnilovic
Girl 21 years old. Main complaint: lack of menstruation. The patient is very slender, from the age of 14-15 there was a suspicion of anorexia, she was very thin, did not eat. – I starved myself from the age of 12-13. I didn’t like the way I looked. I wanted to play sports so that my parents would be happy with me, and then I would feel like a good daughter. Furthermore, I didn’t need to be the best, I needed my parents not to be angry with me. We often moved and I felt lonely. I had no friends, no one understood me.
– How does a person feel who has no friends?
– Depression, empty inside, cold, everything is gray, I don’t want to do anything. I felt unloved.
– How does it feel to be unloved?
– You feel a chill inside, an empty stomach.
– What is the opposite of this?
– This is when there is fullness in the heart, there is someone to talk to, to whom to complain. You know that you are important to someone. I am a flexible person, I love to travel and meet new people. Control is important to me. If I myself decide to do something, then it’s a thrill, but I can’t do it any other way. I don’t like it when people change plans.
– How do you feel when people change plans?
– Anger, eyes harden, eyelids droop, sad look. I don’t like being manipulated. I’m a careful driver. Furthermore, I really don’t like quarrels. These are loud sounds, punishments. My friends used me, I didn’t know how to say no. I didn’t want to fight with anyone. For example, I didn’t tell my friend for many months that I wasn’t happy with our relationship. I wanted to run away, to leave without solving the problem. Discontent sits inside me and boils. The man abandoned our relationship. I also understood that he could not do anything. I was angry. Not only that, but I was unhappy.
-What do you feel in your body when you are angry?
– Heavy look, dark blue color. In the stomach area there is a red ball. I want to cry. I would like to speak out. These sensations in the body do not go away for a long time. Like a bruise that goes away slowly, but if you hit it, it hurts. If you look bad, you’re worthless. Appearance is important to have friends. I don’t seek attention, but I will fight for it. I want to be beautiful so that people will notice me.
Likewise, I like to make noise. I would like to have closer relationships with more people. Not much appetite. I haven’t been in a good mood lately, either. I feel ugly. There is dissatisfaction. It’s like someone is pulling me. Guilt like I’m cheating. I want to be free (positive feeling), but I feel tied by a chain (negative feeling), and it stops me. In tight clothing, the body is more visible. It’s like nudity – all parts of the body are visible. The man is open, long legs and an ugly back are visible.
Naked, uncomfortable, sexy. Stiffness, no power, I want to free myself: at school, in relationships, financially. Tight red and purple leather pants. Like a turtle is heavy, you can’t move faster. I don’t like to go for walks when I’ve eaten a lot. The opposite feeling is lightness. You move easily, quietly, unnoticeably. “I have to get up” – I don’t like forcing myself to move. I was afraid that I would get fat. Yoga is a graceful, subtle ballerina. Like snakes, cats.
Insects move spasmodically, abruptly, without logic. I don’t like the way they twitch. I have no right to kill them. Others have no right to kill me. The weakness of life, how easy it is to kill someone. You live a normal life (snaps fingers) and that’s it. Life can very easily end. I am calm, inventive, inquisitive. I love freedom, I don’t like obligations. Suddenly something might happen. I don’t like to be alone, I need friends. I’m afraid to consider a person a friend if he doesn’t consider me a friend.
– Why do you need friends?
– To learn, to have fun, to feel loved. I want to be told: “You are my friend,” to be invited, to be missed. Then I will feel that I am important. The world is so big and there are so many people in it. You get lost in it, you are not special. I want to be special to some people. Tenderness: gentle movements. I’m a gentle person.
– Tell me what tight is, immerse yourself in this feeling.
– He’s not breathing, the sensation has been taken away, the barrier has been taken away. He wants to get out but can’t, he sweats, it’s tight, he can’t slide. (Silent for a while.)
– Movements are smooth, graceful, hands touch with love, hug gently. Circular movements. I like my hands, my movements are neat. Butterflies with transparent wings and eyes to scare potential predators. I love visiting and hosting. They may think that I have bad friends. I don’t want to think about what they will think about my friends. I wake up early, it seems like the day is wasted.
Day is innocence. Night is something else. Innocence is light, everything is clear. They don’t lie to you. Ease, no shame, you’re not hiding anything. Night – you can put on a mask, tighter clothes, and not be completely yourself. Another form of truth, more difficult. A sickly sweet smell of vanilla or chocolate. I’m afraid of heights.
Flying: tricks, spirals, somersaults over the sea, fresh air, not getting caught, flying to a new place. On its own, with the direction of the flock, so as not to get lost in familiar fields. I love sun or snow. Snow means skiing, long clothes. The sun is freedom: lying in the sun, with people, not alone, and your arms, so as not to interfere, lay parallel to your body.
Rx: Papilio Machaon 30s once.
There was a choice between prescribing the butterfly drug Papilio Machaon and Inachis Io. Both are diurnal butterflies with eyes in color. The patient chose Papilio Machaon as more suitable according to her feelings.
Reaction: after two days, slight bleeding appeared, similar to menstruation. After three weeks, the patient reported that she felt a change in her mood, she was both calmer and sometimes felt hungry.
A month later, Papilio Machaon 30c was repeated again
Reaction: The patient notes changes, but there is no full menstruation and her appetite is not stable. An additional survey was conducted: The patient came in wearing a colorful T-shirt and said that such colorful clothes can usually only be worn at home, where she feels most free. At work, such clothing is not acceptable due to the dress code.
– Tell me about bright clothes and why you like them?
– Bright clothes: bright blue, yellow, fun, freedom. Give pleasure to other people. I’m obsessed with fat. The more fat, the greater the shell between me and the world. You run and something shakes there. I look like a slob, slimy, spineless, reminiscent of a snail, a slug.
A defenseless, stupid creature, moving without a goal, the rain sticking to everything like snot. Ugly, gray, wet, lonely, defenseless. Contrast with bright clothes: New York, lots of colors, people dress the way they want, money, warmth, lots of colors. I love looking at people, they are beautiful.
– Tell me about beauty? How does it feel?
– Red and blue, speed (drawing) – What is the opposite of beauty?
– Fat is slimy, slug, sticks, blocks processes.
– What is the opposite of fat?
– Freedom of movement, not thinking about it (fat). I want to wake up in the morning and feel empty in my stomach and not eat. It’s a positive feeling. Coldness, purity, lightness, potential, I did it! Beauty of the body (not faces).
-What is the opposite of freedom?
– Stuck, not logical, bad thinking. I like bones, dry look, elegance, lightness, freedom, bright clothes. You can wear whatever you want. I can’t touch myself, skeleton. Friends, I like to move when there is a goal. The competition is not fierce.
Rx: Inachis Io 30c
Reaction: From the first month, menstruation came and gradually became regular. There is more desire, no need to force yourself. Good mood.