The case of homeopath Elena Javnilovic
Girl 21 years old. Main complaint: lack of menstruation. The patient is very slender, from the age of 14-15 there was a suspicion of anorexia, she was very thin, did not eat. – I starved myself from the age of 12-13. I didn’t like the way I looked. I wanted to play sports so that my parents would be happy with me, and then I would feel like a good daughter. Furthermore, I didn’t need to be the best, I needed my parents not to be angry with me. We often moved and I felt lonely. I had no friends, no one understood me.
– How does a person feel who has no friends?
– Depression, empty inside, cold, everything is gray, I don’t want to do anything. I felt unloved.
– How does it feel to be unloved?
– You feel a chill inside, an empty stomach.
– What is the opposite of this?
– This is when there is fullness in the heart, there is someone to talk to, to whom to complain. You know that you are important to someone. I am a flexible person, I love to travel and meet new people. Control is important to me. If I myself decide to do something, then it’s a thrill, but I can’t do it any other way. I don’t like it when people change plans.
– How do you feel when people change plans?
– Anger, eyes harden, eyelids droop, sad look. I don’t like being manipulated. I’m a careful driver. Furthermore, I really don’t like quarrels. These are loud sounds, punishments. My friends used me, I didn’t know how to say no. I didn’t want to fight with anyone. For example, I didn’t tell my friend for many months that I wasn’t happy with our relationship. I wanted to run away, to leave without solving the problem. Discontent sits inside me and boils. The man abandoned our relationship. I also understood that he could not do anything. I was angry. Not only that, but I was unhappy.
-What do you feel in your body when you are angry?
– Heavy look, dark blue color. In the stomach area there is a red ball. I want to cry. I would like to speak out. These sensations in the body do not go away for a long time. Like a bruise that goes away slowly, but if you hit it, it hurts. If you look bad, you’re worthless. Appearance is important to have friends. I don’t seek attention, but I will fight for it. I want to be beautiful so that people will notice me.
Likewise, I like to make noise. I would like to have closer relationships with more people. Not much appetite. I haven’t been in a good mood lately, either. I feel ugly. There is dissatisfaction. It’s like someone is pulling me. Guilt like I’m cheating. I want to be free (positive feeling), but I feel tied by a chain (negative feeling), and it stops me. In tight clothing, the body is more visible. It’s like nudity – all parts of the body are visible. The man is open, long legs and an ugly back are visible.
Naked, uncomfortable, sexy. Stiffness, no power, I want to free myself: at school, in relationships, financially. Tight red and purple leather pants. Like a turtle is heavy, you can’t move faster. I don’t like to go for walks when I’ve eaten a lot. The opposite feeling is lightness. You move easily, quietly, unnoticeably. “I have to get up” – I don’t like forcing myself to move. I was afraid that I would get fat. Yoga is a graceful, subtle ballerina. Like snakes, cats.
Insects move spasmodically, abruptly, without logic. I don’t like the way they twitch. I have no right to kill them. Others have no right to kill me. The weakness of life, how easy it is to kill someone. You live a normal life (snaps fingers) and that’s it. Life can very easily end. I am calm, inventive, inquisitive. I love freedom, I don’t like obligations. Suddenly something might happen. I don’t like to be alone, I need friends. I’m afraid to consider a person a friend if he doesn’t consider me a friend.
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